The only way out is through
I have had an ever changing body throughout my life. My size, shape, muscles, weight have all shifted and transformed based on the ways I shifted and transformed.
Physical changes, even ones I consider good changes, often mean short term physical pain for an adjustment period. Generally more acute than the pain it is correcting. Like when I got my wisdom teeth pulled and my bite shifted, my teeth no longer fit together the same, and the readjustment of different teeth banging together gave me headaches. When I quit sugar, my body was so used to only eating processed foods that I had bad digestive issues for over a year. When I quit smoking I got sores in my mouth and on my gums from the healing and new growth where the smoke had damaged my tissues. When I have changed my center of gravity because of something like weight changes or new muscles, I will bang into things for a while and get bruises on my hips and thighs. The list goes on. But the lesson for me is clear: Change is worth it, but it hurts.
The lift in my right shoe has been transformative. Muscles and joints that have plagued me for decades are pain free. There was a knot in my butt, just below my hip that I haven’t felt or had to massage for weeks, and a tight area in my groin that is now just easy and comfortable. I don’t limp first thing in the morning anymore. I don’t have any doubts that I need to be walking with a lift in my right shoe all the time. The pressure I am relieving on my joint and all of its connections is a blessing. I am so grateful for the relief.
But it means there are other muscles that are not used to their new work. And they are tender. I am sometimes bruising myself with my massage roller to loosen them up. And they tire quickly.
I guess that’s the good news, right? Working to exhaustion is the best way to build new muscle. But it does not FEEL good. It just is good. Delayed gratification.
This too shall pass. But I am happy for the reminder that change is painful; and also the only way to get all the things I want out of life. So I am stretching and massaging when I need to. And taking some naproxen sodium to relax my muscles when I need that too. But moving forward with the lift. Because the only way out is through.
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