The ability to choose my experience
I am writing this from a play place filled with screaming children. Because I write this blog every week no matter what.
Sometimes people will ask how a person decides to start running and then wakes up at 5 AM to run. And my answer is that I personally didn’t start out waking up early to run. I started by making the commitment to run. I ran when I could. I made the decision later that I would rather only take one shower. And that made it easier to wake up early to run.
When I got my eating under control I learned that if I was committed, there was always a way to keep my eating boundaries. Even if I failed to plan. Even if I screwed something up. Even if it was all my fault and I *should have done it better.* I could make a call. I could ask for help. I could not just say “fuck it” and give up.
So I am committed to writing a blog every week. Even when I have to take some kids to a birthday party unexpectedly.
One thing I am grateful for about choosing the theme of the year being joyful peaceful purposeful creation is that I didn’t freak out about writing this post today. I kept myself peaceful and calm. I knew it would get done because I know I am committed. I didn’t have to be unhappy and stressed.
And the ability to choose my experience is a gift.
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