I just hope both teams have fun.
I didn’t remember the Super Bowl was today. I don’t particularly care about sports in general or football specifically. I am interested in the cultural aspects like the commercials and the half time show, but I always feel just as good being in bed in real time and catching up the next day.
My husband and I are on the road away from family and friends but even when we happen to be at home, we don’t really do Super Bowl parties. And I have to say that I believe a big part of this is that he doesn’t really care about food and I don’t eat the food anymore.
For the past 19 years I have avoided food focused media. Social, print, video, the whole thing. My husband will often tease me by saying I lack awareness of my surroundings. But it’s generally just a fast food joint. Like he asked if I went to the grocery store with a Burger King in the parking lot. And I told him I had no idea. But then I told him there was an Ace Hardware there, and we agreed it was the same place.
I don’t see fast food places. They literally do not register. But an Ace Hardware might have bendable wire to make a crochet doll’s limbs movable. You can see I simply have my own priorities.
My point is that I don’t see fast food restaurants because they have zero use in my life. (Ok, potentially a bathroom…)
20 years ago I really may have cared about the Super Bowl for taco dip and football shaped cookies. Because I was always thinking about food. And a party like that is centered around food. And the kind of food where it’s all laid out and people can come and go as they please.
The truth is I would almost certainly have looked forward to the food, and then been filled with shame and guilt and anxiety over it once I was there in front of it. Because I hated my body. And I hated people seeing me eat in my “unworthy” body. And I hated that I could not control my eating. Really my weight. I loved eating. I just hated being fat and everyone seeing it.
I am grateful that today I don’t have to eat. That I both stopped hating fatness and started to love freedom from my sugar addiction. I love my food! I love that when I do not eat compulsively, all of it is guilt free. I am grateful I don’t feel like I am missing out. I just hope both teams and all my friends have fun!
onceafatgirl 